confused. have no idea whats wrong with me. =(

well, it all starts when i started crying in my uncle's house. i just feel that maybe i don't suit the way they live their lives. i cant talk to any of them. i feel the fear in me towards my uncle. i just don't know why. its like no matter who i tell my problems too, nobody understands me at all. i miss my friends and families so much in penang till i can cry too sometimes. i have been hoping to get back earlier but i cant. myb my decision of going to aus to spend my holidays wasnt such a good idea although i get to go to different places and eat lots of different kinds of food but yet my heart is still in penang. sighs. i just miss penang so much. i dont think i will ever make the decision to leave penang during christmas holidays anymore cause i know how it feels like right now. before leaving penang to aus, i thought i was able to control or handle my feelings of not being home for at least 3 weeks. but i guess i was really wrong cause i know how badly i misses all my friends and my parents too. my regret that i came here. but there is one thing that i was happy bout. it was when i hang out with my two cousin borthers and get to know their friends girls and guys also. its like i feel much better of mixing with them than being at home with my uncle or auntie. i dont know. i guess after all, i'm still a teenager who likes to hang out and be with friends that i can be more like myself and more relax too. i rather that. now i just left 1 more week and off i go back to penang. the happy thing is that i will get to see my love ones and my friends. sad and bad part is school is gonna reopen after two days once i get back. =(. guess this is all for now? bye and see ya guys. any opinions you all would like to give or drop, just do it. wanna know your opinions bout it. thanks. take care. god bless.

my mum

when i found out from my friend that my mum has to go for a small operation, i was like what??!! how come i didn't know about it?? sighs. i was so worried about her. cant even sleep properly. so i called my mum up and asked her why didn't she told me about it and all she say is that because she doesn't want me to get worried then i almost cried when i heard that. i told her that my friend told me about it and i need to know too. well, during that time, i really wish that i can be with my mum. just by her side. too bad i cant because i'm at aus while she is in penang. so as a christian, all i can do is just pray and have faith in God that he will be with my mum and will protect her through the small operation. well, at the end, yeah!! my mum was save. thank God. i cant afford to loose my mum. i just love her so so much so i'm glad that she is alright. cant wait to see her on the 2nd jan. miss and love you mum. xoxo.

my friends

i miss all of my friends very very much. just some how wish that i could easily contact them although im at overseas now. gosh!! i miss them lots but i guess they are most probably busy preparing for their christmas presentation which i will of course wish them all the best!! may god be with you all when your doing the presentation..miss you people!! xoxo!! love yah!!

holidays for this year 2008

i kinda feel that this year holidays its like just so so..its half fun and also another way round. haihs. i miss everything in penang so so much. christmas drama and all their presentations. i miss all my friends too and smsing. lol. i just miss everything and i really mean it, EVERYTHING. i just hope that as days pass by, my holiday will get even better. sigh. really looking forward to it. hmm. anyways. gotta go now. see yeah!! happy holidays =)