confused. have no idea whats wrong with me. =(

well, it all starts when i started crying in my uncle's house. i just feel that maybe i don't suit the way they live their lives. i cant talk to any of them. i feel the fear in me towards my uncle. i just don't know why. its like no matter who i tell my problems too, nobody understands me at all. i miss my friends and families so much in penang till i can cry too sometimes. i have been hoping to get back earlier but i cant. myb my decision of going to aus to spend my holidays wasnt such a good idea although i get to go to different places and eat lots of different kinds of food but yet my heart is still in penang. sighs. i just miss penang so much. i dont think i will ever make the decision to leave penang during christmas holidays anymore cause i know how it feels like right now. before leaving penang to aus, i thought i was able to control or handle my feelings of not being home for at least 3 weeks. but i guess i was really wrong cause i know how badly i misses all my friends and my parents too. my regret that i came here. but there is one thing that i was happy bout. it was when i hang out with my two cousin borthers and get to know their friends girls and guys also. its like i feel much better of mixing with them than being at home with my uncle or auntie. i dont know. i guess after all, i'm still a teenager who likes to hang out and be with friends that i can be more like myself and more relax too. i rather that. now i just left 1 more week and off i go back to penang. the happy thing is that i will get to see my love ones and my friends. sad and bad part is school is gonna reopen after two days once i get back. =(. guess this is all for now? bye and see ya guys. any opinions you all would like to give or drop, just do it. wanna know your opinions bout it. thanks. take care. god bless.